Prayer, Overcoming Unseen Doubt

Yesterday, I read a passage on prayer in Luke 11. I had heard it so many times before, and I wanted to gleam something new from it that I hadn’t before. So I got a commentary. Growing up in the church, and being active in the church in college and since, I had heard all of the extra tid-bits about the passage that my NIV commentary talked about. I was, frankly, disappointed. But do you know what I never really realized? God hears my heart, and, apparently, it was asking him for something new. I felt like there was a reason I had read that passage—there always is. Up my prayer life? I admit that I pray “popcorn prayers”—when I think of something or someone, I say a prayer for them. I have been super concerned about my Mary Kay business and its lack of growth.praying hands

A few hours later, God spoke through my husband. “Pray like Charles,” he said, referring to a man in his men’s group study at church. How does Charles pray? “He thanks God for things in advance, and just trusts that it will come to be.” I remember Dr. Wile E. Coyote and I talking about this before, but I hadn’t paid much attention, I guess. “Remember when we lost the ring?” Dr. Coyote asked. Yes, we had lost my wedding ring just shy of 6 months after being married. We had prayed for it almost every day, had torn the house apart, and had friends praying with us. 2 or 3 months after we had replaced it, I found it—I didn’t even know the inside of that bag could come out, but when I took it out, there was the ring. God waited until we weren’t anxious about it anymore to bring it back—and we both thought we’d lost it forever. I’ve been anxious about my work at Sound House and my Mary Kay business. Things weren’t growing fast enough. But I was DOUBTING. By praying for the same thing over and over, I didn’t trust that God would answer my prayer after asking him ONCE, so I felt the need again and again. Last night, I decided to stop doubting. Oh, I’ve always had faith. But faith mixed with doubt…even doubt that we don’t realize is there? Counterproductive.

“God, I’m done doubting,” I prayed last night. “Thank you for my team members, even though I don’t know who they are yet. Thank you for making me Kat’s first offspring director, and for helping me become a red jacket before April.” The conference call that our unit does every week was POWERFUL last night. And I only say that because God had been moving in me, and was reminding me of my initial excitement for doing Mary Kay. I again heard his call for working this business. I am reassured!

What are you doubting God to do in your life?

Be blessed, my friends!

Anna E. Meyer

When Doubt Tries to Overtake, It Won’t, Because I Have God on My Side

Doubt: a feeling of uncertainty about the truth, reality, or nature of something; distrust; fear; dread.

I DOUBT.

I am not confident in myself.

I doubt I am good enough.

I doubt the choices I make, all of them.

 

But if I let the Lord move through me, why do I doubt?

I FEAR.

I fear whether I have let down my hold enough for God to move.

I fear whether I am truly sincere, or if my words are simply empty words on a page.

I fear for the future, tomorrow and next year the same.

 

Why am I scared?  On top of the fear,

I WORRY.

I worry about all of which I am fearful.

I worry as a paranoid protector of my sisters and my friends.

I worry as I take trust away I have given to the Lord.

 

Do my words mean nothing?  Does anybody hear me?  I am crying out, reaching into the air onto anything I can grasp.  As I pause to take a breath, I hear a still small voice.

 

“Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself.” Matthew 6:34

“Do not be anxious about anything, but in every petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.” Philippians 4:6

“Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.” 1 Peter 5:7

 

As I cast my worry on Him who is able to do much more than I could even imagine, I feel a burden lifted.  It is still there, as my grip is oh-so-tight.  I give God a laundry list of things I am worried about, asking him to take care of it all.  And I feel better.

 

I am still not confident in myself at all.

I wonder if I have been sincere.

I worry about the future, even though I try not to.

But I know that if nobody else hears me, he who loves me more than anyone on earth hears.  He promises.

I have been oh-so-blessed by family and opportunities so many don’t have.

And I have a heavenly Father who has reserved a place for all of us in the heavenly realm.

Why do we look here for things that will waste away instead of things that are eternal?

 

“Rejoice in the Lord always.  I say again, rejoice!” Philippians 4:4