It tiptoes into peripheral sight, And stays to take away the light. The darkness makes its home there; Until you realize you were unaware.
But I didn’t notice this until I found myself climbing up the hill! The flat and happy ground was green, But this hill is dry and brown and mean.
Depression sneaks up to the unsuspecting; It makes one think they are the one rejecting.
It causes feelings that don’t belong, It places monotone where there once was song. This hemeola of emotions, this fighting of sorts Leads to modulation that’s unwelcome, of course!
One day I’ll be down, and the next snap out of it. It’s like this other unpredictable disease a bit. Depression is a symptom of MS, as well. Which is just my luck– but I won’t dwell!
If it gets bad enough I’ll go see my doc. But coming out myself wouldn’t be a shock. Just like everything else I’ve been given, I’m too busy to notice it–I’m livin’!
So before you go and hand me your pity, Allow me to give you an answer that’s wity: I may not be from Mississippi, have a master’s degree or be a medical specialist, But I AM Mega Smart, Mighty Sarcastic, and Marvelously Sweet. Just ask my sistermom husband. (We still qualify as “newlyweds.”)
Today, I read this blog post that my aunt posted. She works at the Multiple Sclerosis society in Kansas, where she and her family live. It makes me full of hope at the compassion people like her have and how couples are dealing with the unpredictable disease together. I was then thinking about the MS chapter where I live. At this time in my life, I feel alone with it. My cousin was diagnosed years after me, but I feel like my struggles and my age kind of isolate me. I don’t know other people like me. I have been online to a few places where I can meet others with MS, but they are depressed and speak in a depressing way. I have talked to still more who seem to glorify themselves by being over-involved in everything they can be to raise money and awareness of the disease. Is there anyone like me? There’s gotta be. Younger women who love Jesus and are dealing with MS by His power? I would love to start a Facebook group or something for others like me, but I can’t find them. This post is a little bit different than ones I normally post. I was talking to my mom about this and tears came to my eyes. I have been praying that the Lord break my heart for a people group and to lead me to a ministry, but I can’t do so by myself. The need for the strength and saving grace of the Lord is apparent in the community of many who are stuck in their struggles. I know there are people who are living normally with the disease who love Jesus. Do they struggle within themselves? I would love to round up enough people, wherever they’re at, for an online community of support and faith. Could you help me?