Music. Teaching. Writing. Pastoral Care. All my life, I have been led in these directions. I am at a loss. You know when I said, “This is the first time in my life I have no idea what’s happening in the future and I’m okay with it”? Well, those words are coming back to bite me, because I am not necessarily okay with it anymore. I just want to know what I’m going to be doing so that I can focus on that and refresh or gain even more knowledge in that area. I didn’t pass my Praxis education tests to get the score for Kentucky, and I’ve heard from a few different sources about this Christian writer’s conference in Michigan in less than a month. Do I stop looking for teaching jobs and write more? I honestly didn’t even know where in the Word to turn to, so I googled the phrases, “God’s will + circumstances” to see what I’d get. I came across a few awesome articles/blogs. One of them told me to ask myself these questions: “Where has God been leading us? Has He been doing something even when we couldn’t recognize it? In the light of all God has been doing for us, does what we think we hear God saying through our circumstances make sense?” (Edmondson). The thing is, God has been leading me toward all four things I started out this post with. Even when I don’t see it, I look back and realize he has been making me better at those four things. And now I don’t know what circumstances are saying, because anything makes sense right now.
What I do know is that God has been making it very clear to both Dr. Wile E. Coyote and I that he has a plan for us, and that we are to be in Pikeville, Kentucky for a season. He has led us to that path in a way that one can’t question. This last week, Dr. Coyote, my parents, and me drove down to Pikeville (a 2 day drive from anywhere in the upper Midwest). It was great. We looked at our apartment that we had signed the lease on a month earlier (smiley face), D went and turned in some forms in person to the school, and I followed up on some job leads I had. Basically, there have been 3 music teachers hired in the last year, and unless any music teachers are married to a med student who will be moving on soon, there won’t be an opening anytime soon. But I picked up the sub application for two districts. And the newspaper, where I sent my resume the week before, was still in the process of looking at all the resumes that have come in. But the music store. The music store is looking to expand on the private lessons it offers to band students. There is a man who gives drum set lessons who would like to focus on something else, so I could potentially have his students. The owner of the store said we would stay in contact, and that they would probably be able to use me. So excited! I love giving lessons. I love having that relationship with a student and passing on knowledge and watching them grow! So, ideally, I could be almost-full-time giving lessons, and maybe I could write? That would be awesome. And while we were there, we also took in some of the sites and got a feel for the town where much of the Hatfield-McCoy Feud took place. (And I didn’t even really know about the Hatfield-McCoy feud. I do now!)
The Lord alone knows what the future has in store. I’ve been finding verses that I feel the Lord has been speaking to me through lately and writing them on index cards so I have them with me to look at again and again. Verses that calm worry (1 Peter 5:7, Matthew 6:34), calm chaos (Psalm 46:10a, Psalm 37:7a), encourage perseverance because He is with me (2 Chronicles 32:7, Exodus 14:14, Joshua 1:9, Deuteronomy 31:6), command me to love him (Joshua 24:15b, Matthew 22:37-39, 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18), and tell me that he’s got it (2 Corinthians 12:9). These are only a few verses I read often to calm me and remind me that the Lord is near.
Dr. Wile E. Coyote told me that he thinks the Lord is leading me in 4 directions on purpose. I know God has been teaching me trust through every single thing he seems to be doing in my life, but this is another one of those things. He also tries my TEACHES ME patience every time I turn around, as well, smiley face.
Music, pastoral care, teaching, writing. I don’t really know what God has in store for these things, but I dream of a job where I can use all these things that the Lord has been preparing me for at once.
Do you look at verses for comfort or have some memorized to repeat to yourself when you need it? What are they? Does God talk to you through circumstances or does he sort of just leave you waiting and trusting until the almost-last-minute?