So this morning I’m like, “Lord, I don’t think I can count MS as suffering anymore because it’s always there and I just deal.” After my last class, walking was near impossible and I have no idea how I stayed upright and moving forward, although I paused many times to regain balance on my way back to my room. My left leg wouldn’t lift anymore and with each step, my knee hyper-extended, causing physical pain that made me recoil at the thought of another step. And as I was riding the teleportation device that transports you multiple flights of stairs (also known as an elevator) to get to my floor, I remembered. “Alright, Lord, so it’s only not ‘suffering’ when it’s not bad. I was totally kidding about what I said this morning. But did you seriously have to go through all that just to show me?” And I realized my need for the Lord in a physical way, that I can’t just depend on myself. It was a good lesson of constant dependence, one I’ve re-learned many times, especially when I forget. But sometimes, I don’t see why I need to be re-taught so soon after last time.
It’s like when I’m doing a devo in the morning and I ask the Lord a question, leaving before it is answered. I usually find my answer that night after a bad day, because I realize he used the day to answer my question. The Lord is faithful. So seriously, be specific and be careful what you’re asking him for. It’s kind of like when Jonah didn’t want to go tell the Ninevites the good news because he didn’t like them, and he knew that God would hear them if they repented (he didn’t even want to give them a chance—they were mean).
Psalm 33:4, “For the word of the Lord is right and true; he is faithful in all he does.”
Have you ever asked God for something that he faithfully answered, but you didn’t think he was going to? Or you “accidently” asked? Similarly to the above stated examples?