Written 10-9-12, Anna Olson
The mistakes of my past weigh heavy on my shoulders.
I try to shrug them off, but they weigh down like boulders.
I try to change the past, but there’s no way I’ll succeed.
I can only change the future which will be better than the past, guaranteed.
I beat myself up over what I coulda, woulda, shoulda done.
But that’s not helping anything, just adding to the weight a ton.
Jesus taps me on the shoulder, but I hardly notice as I struggle.
He clears his throat and randomly announces he knows how to juggle.
I turn to see his face after his announcement so sarcastic.
But my eyes grow wide as he takes a heavy rock from me and tosses it real drastic.
“Can you take more?” I ask, and I follow his gaze to my white-knuckled grip.
“Oh, right,” I say and I try and loosen up as I bite my lip.
I watch the Lord smile as he reaches over to help me.
Then, he takes my burden away completely!
“Anna,” he says as he hands me a gift.
“I’m always right here, waiting!” My perspective begins to shift.
Instead of worrying about my flimsy worries here on earth, I look to Jesus!
Does what I’m doing have eternal worth? Always, always, look to Jesus!
It doesn’t matter what I didn’t do, just what I will.
And since I won’t be doing all that on my own, I can just BE STILL!